today is a “buckle up your bootstraps” kind of day. this little lady is stuffy and cranky as can be. no fever (thank God) but she does have the worse congestion known to man. worse than that, is her not letting me touch her to wipe her nose and screams any time i ask her to blow into a tissue. so, all morning i’ve been dealing with a snotty little lady, who’s learning that hitting mommy is not ok. i’ve only had this motherhood gig for two years and so far it’s been pretty good, but man-oh-man this little girl is making her wishes known and i am really close to getting out-willed by my two year old.
today i’m remembering the ladies who have told me that mothering isn’t easy. i’m covered in all sorts of bodily fluids and after one hour of crying uncontrollably, she nestled up right on top of my chest, ensuring that i thought about her with my every breath.
in the midst of the tears and me hitting a breaking point, i remember this psalm:
I will sing of your love and justice; to you, Lord, I will sing praise. I will be careful to lead a blameless life— when will you come to me? I will conduct the affairs of my house with a blameless heart. (Psalm 101:1, 2 NIV)
and very quietly i sing of His love and justice. i thank Him for letting me be a momma to this little girl and i pray for the pursuit of a blameless life and a blameless heart. a heart that’s compassionate and gracious towards her and others.
for now, i’ll continue to act as a human crib and pray that she’ll sleep for more than half an hour (enough to let me rest my eyes and my back) and pray for the mommas out there who have sick babies and are leaning on His strength.
p.s: any tips on how to get rid of a stuffy nose on a two year old?? i’ll take anything!!!
